Tuesday, July 19, 2005

I finally knew. The change is in me!

After a long time, I know! I didn't know what I was doing all this while, but finally, I am back! I am not just back, but I realized I am new. Well, the basic me is still here with me, not necessarily in me though!

Now, what made me realize today that I am not the same old one? A lot of things that were happening since long were hinting me, hence the previous entry in my blog. The bubble finally burst now, a few moments before I type this post! And, I am using this great service to make note of this never-before event!

For the first time in my life, I voluntarily gave up a friend! Well, that was what he was, until we broke. Several times in the past, situations like this one arose, and I always stooped down as much as I could, and sometimes more than that, and mended the relation. Now, in this case, I didn't find it necessary! This guy was a lot important friend to me - a caring person, someone concerned about me all the time, and a person who needed my care and support sometimes. The world was green, and the larks sang sweetly always! Money played Satan, and (his) "credit history" was His weapon! This guy (Let's call him "J" ...no, it doesn't stand for jealousy here!) says I didn't stand by my word and it affected his credit history! He is true, I admit, but the way he expressed his anger and anguish made our friendship a history! No, actually! Not any more! If I am asked now, I don't even want it in my history!

I never knew I can denounce a person and a relation! I always felt bad if someone cut off a relation! And, sometimes, I felt sad that I don't do that! Now, I "achieved" it! Should I be happy? Why not!?

The world is still green, and larks never disappoint! I sing along... there's a lot in life, and a lot more, and still a lot more! Welcome, life!